She stirred in her sleep… the man that found her earlier immediately went up to her side… and grabbed her hand… she had been calling the same name for couple of times during her sleep… while he on the other side… watched her in her sleep…
He had taken her to a nearby clinic…knew that it was because of too much exhaustion that’s why she passed out… he wondered why she was so sad when he found her… totally different from her blooming aura when they first met…
She’s really beautiful… that he cant take his eyes off of her… he even skipped his job just to stay and wait for her to wake up… he just wanted to know that she’s now okay… her face looked really tired and painful earlier… that he too couldn’t help but to feel her pain…
Her eyes slowly fluttered open… she first stared on the ceiling… not realizing where she is… but upon seeing the bright light inside the room… she couldn’t help but to think if she’s already dead… she didn’t bother shifting her gaze… but stayed staring straight up… if she’s dead, it’s probably for the better… she thought… at least she wouldn’t feel any pain now… or better she wouldn’t feel a thing now…
But a sudden voice brought her back to reality… the same voice that she heard earlier at the beach is now calling her again… feeling something warm enveloping her hand… she then finally shifted her gaze to the side…
He was smiling at her… still not letting go of her hand… for he found the comfort holding it in his big hands… and hoping that she too feels the same comfort he’s feeling…
“Are you okay now…?”
He asked her… she looked at him with wondering eyes but managed to nod at his words…he couldn’t help but to giggle a bit because of her innocent, child-like look… her gaze shifted as to where her hand was resting and her eyes widen a bit seeing it wrapped tightly with his hand…He noticed her gaze and quickly let go of her hand as he faked out a cough…
“I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to hold it for so long…”
He said while looking away… she smiled as she saw him blushing… for a while she forgot about everything… thanks to the stranger she met just a while ago…
He immediately stood up from his seat when he saw her trying to sat up… he went towards her and helped her..
“Thanks…”
She shyly said…she looked around… wondering where she is… he told her she’s in the clinic…
“Omo… I’m sorry for bothering you...”
She quickly sat at the edge of the bed and bowed to him in apology… he shook his hands in front of him telling her it’s okay… she’s not only beautiful, but also a kind hearted one… he thought…
“I think you should rest first… you look so tired…”
“Ani… I already bothered you too much… I should just go… plus I think it’s already late… they’re probably looking for me now…”
She lied… thinking her husband would probably the happiest man tonight… seeing her all gone was his lifetime dream… she just doesn’t want to be a trouble for other peope anymore… her whole body, especially her feet were all sore from walking too much… but definitely it’s nothing compared as to what she’s feeling right now…
He saw the sudden change in her face… she’s slowly going back from being sad… somehow it bothers him seeing her like that… but what could he do…? He’s not on he right place to ask her about her problem…
“Miss.. “
He tried garnering her attention…
“I know I’m not in the right place to ask you of your problem… but I’ve seen how broken you are earlier… I’m sure and hope you can get through to what you’re dealing right now… well… you went to the right place earlier to calm yourself… I, too find the comfort going to that beach… just be strong… it doesn’t suit seeing such a beautiful lady crying her eyes out…”
She blushed with his last statement… unconsciously biting her lower lip… thinking she just found herself another weird man yet sweet man…
“T... thanks…”
He chuckled at her reaction… she looked at him again with wondering eyes before her lips curved a sweet smile… just then he felt something skipped inside of him again…
--
They were walking outside… she insisted going home despite the already deepening night… he offered to escort her to her house even though he doesn’t even have a car of his own… he’s just worried of her travelling alone… but in the end she still declined… he was just able to convinced her when he told her he’ll just escort her to the bus stop…
“We have met each other before if I have not mistaken…”
He broke the silence between them… the bus stop as a bit far from the beach…
“You were with a cute little girl… your niece right…?”
“Ah… yes…”
She remembered that day… one of those happiest day… together with her angel…
“She really looks like you… I even thought she’s your daughter… but then, you’re too young to be a mom, so I thought probably her older sister… I never thought you’re her aunt…”
He chuckled again… somehow she felt her Seunghyun oppa with the company of this man… they are both a talker and have that same warm smile… maybe that’s why she felt easily comfortable around him.
“Why are you here in this beach…? Are you a life guard or something…?”
He looked down at her and shook his head no…
“I’m working over there…”
He pointed somewhere far at the beach… it was like a construction site… with people still working around it…
“Someone’s planning to build a restaurant near the beach…”
She nodded with her mouth wide forming an ‘o’… he bit his lower lip to suppress himself from feeling so giddy about her expressions… even just by the slight light coming from the moon and the light posts round the beach, her beauty is still noticeable…
“Good luck on it…”
“Well… I hope you could visit once it’s done…”
“Sure…”
He stole one last glance to see her smile… contented to at least not seeing any trails of sadness on her face…
--
He helped her what station she should stop at… good thing he was familiar with the place… they waited for the bus… he kept her company… talking about random things… throwing jokes at her… as if he had already known her for so long… he doesn’t even know why he felt so comfortable around her… she’s just too easy to approach… he was curious about the name she’s been calling earlier but decided to pass from asking her about it… minding his words not to cause sadness again in her…
The bus finally came… she went inside but then turned back to him when he called her back…
“Take care miss…?”
“Sandara… Dara for short…”
For minutes that they have been talking they forgot to introduce themselves to each other... he reached for her hand and shook it with his…
“Well nice meeting you Dara… I’m… Yunho… I hope we could see each other again…”
“Yunho…”
She repeated his name and nodded… she went inside the bus and waved at him at the window… he waved back and sighed when he watched the bus slowly drifting away… lastly a smile curved up on his lips again as he repeated her name in his mind…
--
I looked outside the window… and reality hits me again… I’m again going back to my cell… I’m again going back to my torture… should I still go back…? Was ‘he’ looking for me…? Just then a bitter smile crept on my lips upon thinking of my last thought… until now I’m making myself believe in such false hope…
My hands suddenly reached for my chest… trying to grasp my necklace… but then, I stiffened… not feeling anything on my hands or neither around my neck…
“Where is it..?”
I mumbled as I looked around… where did I drop it…?
But isn’t a great chance for me truly forget everything…? To let all those memories… unrequited happiness be locked down inside that room… for me to be able to move on and to stop feeding myself another false hopes and lies…
Should I just let all of those things be forgotten…?
--
The bus stopped on one station… she was still seated, battling to herself to just let go… she had been hurt a lot… by the same man she learned to love… but then, suddenly she stood up from her seat… and stopped the driver before he closed the door… she went out with nothing but the desire to find that key…
She could have asked for a duplicate…or she could have just let it be lost forever… but a part of her wants to find it herself… she couldn’t just forget about those memories… just like that key… she couldn’t just let go of those moments with him… for every event marked deep inside her… bring thrill in her blood… and even pounding her heart to keep its pace… he maybe the cause of her pain… but he surely is the great cause of her happiness…
She maybe too stupid to see him that way… too stupid to not loathe him… but her heart wouldn’t want to listen what her mind’s telling it to do…
She backtracked her way… there’s no way she could see it this time… the place was already dark… and she doesn’t even know where she dropped it…
“Where is it…?”
She continuously chanted… tears forming inside her eyes once again… sweat forming on her forehead… after minutes of finding it… she still failed… she doesn’t even know where she is by now…
She slumped down on the road… feeling so defeated… he already lost him earlier, and now even losing her memories of him…
She cried on the dark road… shivering when the wind blew past her… she looked around and nothing… she couldn’t see anything… just like in her dreams the other night… everything is so dark…everything is so cold…
Just then…
Something warm enveloped her body… just like in her dreams… the same warmth was now wrapping her in this reality… she looked up… those eyes… those same cold eyes… was now filled with worry was looking down at her…
She broke out in more tears… her lips parted… wanted to call out to him… just to make sure she’s not just hallucinating things…
“Ji… Jiyong…”
Her voice was shaking together with her body… he wrapped his jacket more to ease the coldness in her body as he lifted her to stand up…
“What were you thinking…? You’re so stupid… Look at you… you’re freezing…”
He rubbed her shoulders… not looking straight in her eyes… he wrapped his other arm around her shoulders as he made his way towards his car… her sobs lessened… but her body was still shaking from crying… he put her on the passenger’s seat, without another word from him… he went to the other side and reached out for her to buckle her seat belt…
She didn’t speak either… doesn’t even know what to say… she closed her eyes… and rested herself on her seat… she needed her energy… she knew about his silence… expecting for a punishment to come in her way…
He glanced at her… saw her eyes both closed… he wanted to reach for her… brush away those hair that’s blocking her face… wipe off the formed sweat on her forehead… but he kept himself in his place…
“Don’t hold yourself back”
He remembered what his dad told him earlier…
He immediately drove his way to find her once he got home from the dinner with his dad… got a call from Youngbae seeking for his help to find her, he didn’t take a second thought about it… felt at least grateful finding out that his friend hasn’t find her yet… feeling a little selfish for himself on finding her..
Taeyeon was calling him… and it took him much strength to ignore her call… it was his first time feeling so helpless… worried… and when he saw her slumping on the road… he just want to rip himself apart for much trouble he had cause…
--
They reached their house… the maids quickly escorted her out… he called his friend who was still on the search for his wife… telling him that he finally found her… despite the sadness in Youngbae’s voice, he was grateful that there nothing bad happened to her…
“Please Jiyong-ah… don’t hurt her anymore… she must be so tired by now…”
He heard his friend plead on the other line… it felt like a dagger being pleaded not to harm his wife…
“Don’t worry… I won’t...” and with that he hanged up his phone…
He went to their room… saw her lying down on their bed still wearing her dirty clothes… she was so tired… both physically and emotionally… she felt so failed not obtaining her necklace back and now probably would taste another punishment from him…
He sat on the other side of their bed… both back facing each other…
“Why did you do that…? Why did you run away…?”
She was startled by his question moreover with his tone… he sounded worried far from his always cold voice… he glanced to his side… hearing her sobbing once again…
“I’m so tired now Jiyong… what do you really want me to do…?”
She slowly sat up… facing him… he turned around to meet her face… saw the weariness on her face…
“You wanted me to disappear right…? You wanted me to just go away right…? Then why are you asking me this now…? Why… I… I don’t understand you anymore…”
She said between her sobs… he was left in awe… watched her as she drown herself in tears…
“I don’t know what to do anymore… I’m just… I’m just so tired of everything…”
She looked down and gripped tightly on the sheets under her…
“Don’t…”
He mumbled… choking on his own words as tears started to fill the rim of his eyes… she looked up not getting what he just said…
“Don’t leave me…”
He had taken her to a nearby clinic…knew that it was because of too much exhaustion that’s why she passed out… he wondered why she was so sad when he found her… totally different from her blooming aura when they first met…
She’s really beautiful… that he cant take his eyes off of her… he even skipped his job just to stay and wait for her to wake up… he just wanted to know that she’s now okay… her face looked really tired and painful earlier… that he too couldn’t help but to feel her pain…
Her eyes slowly fluttered open… she first stared on the ceiling… not realizing where she is… but upon seeing the bright light inside the room… she couldn’t help but to think if she’s already dead… she didn’t bother shifting her gaze… but stayed staring straight up… if she’s dead, it’s probably for the better… she thought… at least she wouldn’t feel any pain now… or better she wouldn’t feel a thing now…
But a sudden voice brought her back to reality… the same voice that she heard earlier at the beach is now calling her again… feeling something warm enveloping her hand… she then finally shifted her gaze to the side…
He was smiling at her… still not letting go of her hand… for he found the comfort holding it in his big hands… and hoping that she too feels the same comfort he’s feeling…
“Are you okay now…?”
He asked her… she looked at him with wondering eyes but managed to nod at his words…he couldn’t help but to giggle a bit because of her innocent, child-like look… her gaze shifted as to where her hand was resting and her eyes widen a bit seeing it wrapped tightly with his hand…He noticed her gaze and quickly let go of her hand as he faked out a cough…
“I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to hold it for so long…”
He said while looking away… she smiled as she saw him blushing… for a while she forgot about everything… thanks to the stranger she met just a while ago…
He immediately stood up from his seat when he saw her trying to sat up… he went towards her and helped her..
“Thanks…”
She shyly said…she looked around… wondering where she is… he told her she’s in the clinic…
“Omo… I’m sorry for bothering you...”
She quickly sat at the edge of the bed and bowed to him in apology… he shook his hands in front of him telling her it’s okay… she’s not only beautiful, but also a kind hearted one… he thought…
“I think you should rest first… you look so tired…”
“Ani… I already bothered you too much… I should just go… plus I think it’s already late… they’re probably looking for me now…”
She lied… thinking her husband would probably the happiest man tonight… seeing her all gone was his lifetime dream… she just doesn’t want to be a trouble for other peope anymore… her whole body, especially her feet were all sore from walking too much… but definitely it’s nothing compared as to what she’s feeling right now…
He saw the sudden change in her face… she’s slowly going back from being sad… somehow it bothers him seeing her like that… but what could he do…? He’s not on he right place to ask her about her problem…
“Miss.. “
He tried garnering her attention…
“I know I’m not in the right place to ask you of your problem… but I’ve seen how broken you are earlier… I’m sure and hope you can get through to what you’re dealing right now… well… you went to the right place earlier to calm yourself… I, too find the comfort going to that beach… just be strong… it doesn’t suit seeing such a beautiful lady crying her eyes out…”
She blushed with his last statement… unconsciously biting her lower lip… thinking she just found herself another weird man yet sweet man…
“T... thanks…”
He chuckled at her reaction… she looked at him again with wondering eyes before her lips curved a sweet smile… just then he felt something skipped inside of him again…
--
They were walking outside… she insisted going home despite the already deepening night… he offered to escort her to her house even though he doesn’t even have a car of his own… he’s just worried of her travelling alone… but in the end she still declined… he was just able to convinced her when he told her he’ll just escort her to the bus stop…
“We have met each other before if I have not mistaken…”
He broke the silence between them… the bus stop as a bit far from the beach…
“You were with a cute little girl… your niece right…?”
“Ah… yes…”
She remembered that day… one of those happiest day… together with her angel…
“She really looks like you… I even thought she’s your daughter… but then, you’re too young to be a mom, so I thought probably her older sister… I never thought you’re her aunt…”
He chuckled again… somehow she felt her Seunghyun oppa with the company of this man… they are both a talker and have that same warm smile… maybe that’s why she felt easily comfortable around him.
“Why are you here in this beach…? Are you a life guard or something…?”
He looked down at her and shook his head no…
“I’m working over there…”
He pointed somewhere far at the beach… it was like a construction site… with people still working around it…
“Someone’s planning to build a restaurant near the beach…”
She nodded with her mouth wide forming an ‘o’… he bit his lower lip to suppress himself from feeling so giddy about her expressions… even just by the slight light coming from the moon and the light posts round the beach, her beauty is still noticeable…
“Good luck on it…”
“Well… I hope you could visit once it’s done…”
“Sure…”
He stole one last glance to see her smile… contented to at least not seeing any trails of sadness on her face…
--
He helped her what station she should stop at… good thing he was familiar with the place… they waited for the bus… he kept her company… talking about random things… throwing jokes at her… as if he had already known her for so long… he doesn’t even know why he felt so comfortable around her… she’s just too easy to approach… he was curious about the name she’s been calling earlier but decided to pass from asking her about it… minding his words not to cause sadness again in her…
The bus finally came… she went inside but then turned back to him when he called her back…
“Take care miss…?”
“Sandara… Dara for short…”
For minutes that they have been talking they forgot to introduce themselves to each other... he reached for her hand and shook it with his…
“Well nice meeting you Dara… I’m… Yunho… I hope we could see each other again…”
“Yunho…”
She repeated his name and nodded… she went inside the bus and waved at him at the window… he waved back and sighed when he watched the bus slowly drifting away… lastly a smile curved up on his lips again as he repeated her name in his mind…
--
I looked outside the window… and reality hits me again… I’m again going back to my cell… I’m again going back to my torture… should I still go back…? Was ‘he’ looking for me…? Just then a bitter smile crept on my lips upon thinking of my last thought… until now I’m making myself believe in such false hope…
My hands suddenly reached for my chest… trying to grasp my necklace… but then, I stiffened… not feeling anything on my hands or neither around my neck…
“Where is it..?”
I mumbled as I looked around… where did I drop it…?
But isn’t a great chance for me truly forget everything…? To let all those memories… unrequited happiness be locked down inside that room… for me to be able to move on and to stop feeding myself another false hopes and lies…
Should I just let all of those things be forgotten…?
--
The bus stopped on one station… she was still seated, battling to herself to just let go… she had been hurt a lot… by the same man she learned to love… but then, suddenly she stood up from her seat… and stopped the driver before he closed the door… she went out with nothing but the desire to find that key…
She could have asked for a duplicate…or she could have just let it be lost forever… but a part of her wants to find it herself… she couldn’t just forget about those memories… just like that key… she couldn’t just let go of those moments with him… for every event marked deep inside her… bring thrill in her blood… and even pounding her heart to keep its pace… he maybe the cause of her pain… but he surely is the great cause of her happiness…
She maybe too stupid to see him that way… too stupid to not loathe him… but her heart wouldn’t want to listen what her mind’s telling it to do…
She backtracked her way… there’s no way she could see it this time… the place was already dark… and she doesn’t even know where she dropped it…
“Where is it…?”
She continuously chanted… tears forming inside her eyes once again… sweat forming on her forehead… after minutes of finding it… she still failed… she doesn’t even know where she is by now…
She slumped down on the road… feeling so defeated… he already lost him earlier, and now even losing her memories of him…
She cried on the dark road… shivering when the wind blew past her… she looked around and nothing… she couldn’t see anything… just like in her dreams the other night… everything is so dark…everything is so cold…
Just then…
Something warm enveloped her body… just like in her dreams… the same warmth was now wrapping her in this reality… she looked up… those eyes… those same cold eyes… was now filled with worry was looking down at her…
She broke out in more tears… her lips parted… wanted to call out to him… just to make sure she’s not just hallucinating things…
“Ji… Jiyong…”
Her voice was shaking together with her body… he wrapped his jacket more to ease the coldness in her body as he lifted her to stand up…
“What were you thinking…? You’re so stupid… Look at you… you’re freezing…”
He rubbed her shoulders… not looking straight in her eyes… he wrapped his other arm around her shoulders as he made his way towards his car… her sobs lessened… but her body was still shaking from crying… he put her on the passenger’s seat, without another word from him… he went to the other side and reached out for her to buckle her seat belt…
She didn’t speak either… doesn’t even know what to say… she closed her eyes… and rested herself on her seat… she needed her energy… she knew about his silence… expecting for a punishment to come in her way…
He glanced at her… saw her eyes both closed… he wanted to reach for her… brush away those hair that’s blocking her face… wipe off the formed sweat on her forehead… but he kept himself in his place…
“Don’t hold yourself back”
He remembered what his dad told him earlier…
He immediately drove his way to find her once he got home from the dinner with his dad… got a call from Youngbae seeking for his help to find her, he didn’t take a second thought about it… felt at least grateful finding out that his friend hasn’t find her yet… feeling a little selfish for himself on finding her..
Taeyeon was calling him… and it took him much strength to ignore her call… it was his first time feeling so helpless… worried… and when he saw her slumping on the road… he just want to rip himself apart for much trouble he had cause…
--
They reached their house… the maids quickly escorted her out… he called his friend who was still on the search for his wife… telling him that he finally found her… despite the sadness in Youngbae’s voice, he was grateful that there nothing bad happened to her…
“Please Jiyong-ah… don’t hurt her anymore… she must be so tired by now…”
He heard his friend plead on the other line… it felt like a dagger being pleaded not to harm his wife…
“Don’t worry… I won’t...” and with that he hanged up his phone…
He went to their room… saw her lying down on their bed still wearing her dirty clothes… she was so tired… both physically and emotionally… she felt so failed not obtaining her necklace back and now probably would taste another punishment from him…
He sat on the other side of their bed… both back facing each other…
“Why did you do that…? Why did you run away…?”
She was startled by his question moreover with his tone… he sounded worried far from his always cold voice… he glanced to his side… hearing her sobbing once again…
“I’m so tired now Jiyong… what do you really want me to do…?”
She slowly sat up… facing him… he turned around to meet her face… saw the weariness on her face…
“You wanted me to disappear right…? You wanted me to just go away right…? Then why are you asking me this now…? Why… I… I don’t understand you anymore…”
She said between her sobs… he was left in awe… watched her as she drown herself in tears…
“I don’t know what to do anymore… I’m just… I’m just so tired of everything…”
She looked down and gripped tightly on the sheets under her…
“Don’t…”
He mumbled… choking on his own words as tears started to fill the rim of his eyes… she looked up not getting what he just said…
“Don’t leave me…”
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