Youngbae… Dong Youngbae….
Now I remembered where I saw you… I’m sure you’re one of his friends… You were at my wedding… but we never got to talk to each other… Now I realized that you were the one who played that beautiful song that keeps playing in my head until now…
How I didn’t paid attention to anyone that day… How I really wanted to know who played that song back then… that song which somehow calmed my aching heart for awhile… it was you all along… such a waste that we didn’t have the chance to be introduced to each other…
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It’s just that I’m wondering why didn’t he tell me that he already knows me… did he forget that I’m his friend’s wife…?
He’s strange… after he wished me luck, he didn’t spoke to me after that… he remained quiet and I can’t help that once in a while I would steal glances at him… he’s now having that serious face in his face again…
The class ended without him talking to me again… he got out of the room quickly… I want to ask him if he could remember me but he immediately left… maybe he’s just the same as his friend… maybe it runs in their blood… they’re all so cold.
I sighed… for I thought I would finally have my first friend in this campus… I guess he just don’t like me just like him…
I feel so isolated… nobody wants to approach me or even talk to me… I don’t know if it’s just me or are they really ignoring me… at least I got to manage surviving two more classes before the break without anyone to talk to…
I limped along the hallway making my way towards the cafeteria… my mind filled with different thoughts… is something wrong with me…? Do I have bad breath or something…? Why can’t I make friends just like back in abroad…? I really want this day to be great…
After I bought my food… I started looking for a place to eat… the benches are all occupied… they are all in groups which makes me feel really envious… I walked a while still trying to find myself a space… I went outside the campus and finally found a place for me under a tree…
I started eating while looking around… watching people as they’re having fun lunch with their group… feeling the breeze as it started to enveloped me… at least the wind wants to join me in my solitude…
I don’t want to go back inside… I know that it’s still my first day… that maybe as day pass by I could finally have my group of friends… but the feeling is different… this place also reminds me of the mansion… his mansion which locking me up from happiness and bringing me into deep loneliness…
I suddenly lost my appetite… as soon as I saw ‘him’ from afar… why of all people I have to see him… he’s with Youngbae… walking towards someone… I saw a smile crept into his lips… I think it’s the first time I saw him do that… his smile somehow brings warmth inside my chest… how I wish he could smile like that in front of me…
I saw him approaching someone… his smile grew bigger until he reached that ‘someone’… somehow I knew who it is… it’s his lover… my heart skipped a bit when I saw him hugging her from behind… only I could see their backs not until they shifted their position…
How affectionate he can be with her... how sweet he can be... I wish that once he could be like that to me... even just a simple kindness from him would be enough.
So she’s his Taeyeon… even from afar I could see that she’s a beauty… her porcelain complexion stands out the most… her brown long hair and her slender body… the way she smiles could melt any man’s heart… she’s perfect… no wonder he fell for her… I couldn't help but to envy her.
I saw him resting his head on her shoulder whispering something in her ears which made her laugh, his arms wrapped around her waist … their friends started to surround them including Youngbae… all of them are having a good time… Even her friends like her so much...
I found myself stiffened while watching them… he released her from his hold only to reach for her hand and intertwined it with his… his smile never left his lips not until he saw me watching them… I saw him frowned… his face became sour… I can’t help but to feel guilty for ruining his mood…
He quickly looked away as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder… threw a deadly glare on me before walking away with her… I just bowed my head as if I’ve committed a crime for watching them… after a while I looked up only to see that they’re already far… I sighed once again… I wonder if he’ll punish me later once we got home…
Then something… no someone caught my eye… I saw Youngbae slowly approaching me… I fidgeted on my position trying to stand up and just leave before he could reach me… but I was too late… he’s now standing in front of me looking down at me… silence… just silence…
Did he see me looking at them earlier…? Did he see how stupid I looked like watching my husband with another woman… did he see how pathetic I look like now being alone…
“Uhmmm… hi…”
I managed to say while looking up at him… he’s just wearing that still serious face…. He didn’t answer but just bend down to meet my face… I somehow got startled on how our faces were now inches away from each other so I quickly pulled my head back a little…
I saw him got his handkerchief from his pocket… I just watch him… then he wiped off something at the side of my mouth… he didn’t say anything but just continued what he’s doing… he’s really strange….
“Th- thanks…”
Is all I could manage to say… he just looked at me then shifted himself and sat beside me… I heard him sighed… I turned to him and gathered my voice to speak up.
“What are you doing here Youngbae-sshi…?” I asked him… he didn’t look back at me but continued looking afar.
“Did you know that an average person falls in love seven times before marriage…?” he suddenly said…
“Eh…?
“That two out of five have married their first love…”
“Huh…?”
He still continued and didn’t pay attention to me… he’s really freaking me out… why is he saying these things…? I reached for his arm to make him stop.
“Oh… you’re here…?” He turned to me finally... his eyes widened as if he’s really surprised to see me.
“Huh…? Yes I am… you’re the one who approached me first… can’t you remember…?”
I let go of his arm… I could feel my forehead creasing because of this weird man… then suddenly, I saw him slowly smiling.
“Ah really…? But I got here first…”
He said raising his brow… I can’t believe this guy… is he playing with me…? This conversation’s becoming pointless… I think something’s wrong with his mind… I rolled my eyes and decided to just leave… I grabbed my things and started to stand up but then he suddenly grabbed my hand and pulled me to sit down again… I was surprise again… I almost fell down on him but he managed to hold onto my shoulders and sat me down.
“Where are you going…?” he asked me
“I should just go… coz it seems like you’re just playing with me…”
“Why’d you think so…?”
He said with his serious tone… here he go again…. I just stared at him while pouting… I don’t want to talk to him so the best thing is to just keep quiet…. Then he began chuckling.
“I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to piss you… it’s just that you look all serious…”
“No I am not…”
“Yes you are…”
Silence… We looked at each other and I'm starting to feel uncomfortable with his stare… so I was the one who broke the silence first.
“So you came here just because I look serious…?
“Hmmm…. Yeah… I was bored then I saw you…”
“But I saw you with your friends…”
“So you were watching me…?” he said teasingly
“No I am not…!” as I looked away… I could feel my cheeks burning with his constant staring…
“Why are you blushing…?”
“No I am not…!” I pouted…. Why did he suddenly turn out like this…?
And then silence again… I still didn’t dare to look at him because I could still feel him looking at me…
“I don’t want to go back in there… Can you stay here with me…” he suddenly said as he rested his arms behind his head and leaned back on the tree.
“Why…?” I finally turned to him
“It’s so boring in there…” he said as he closed his eyes… I looked at him and can't help but to admire his beauty... I sighed once again.
I decided to stay… we heard the bell rang indicating that the class is now starting… I can't believe that I cut class in my first day… but somehow I don’t regret it… somehow I like to just stay here with him. I also leaned my back on the tree while looking around as people around us starting to lessen until we’re the only ones left.
“Youngbae-sshi…” I called him
“Hmmm…?”
“Do you remember me…?”
“Hmmm…? What do you mean…?” he said still his eyes closed… can’t he really remember me..?
“Well… you played a song for my wedding… and I really liked it.... can’t you remember that…?”
He didn’t answer back… I didn’t talk anymore… silence consumed us again… maybe he’s already sleeping… after a while… I could feel myself slowly drowsing… my eyes slowly closed and the next thing I know is I fell into a deep sleep.
‘You were really beautiful that day…’
‘I wish I was him…’
‘I wish I am the one who’s suppose to be with you right now…’
‘Am I dreaming…? Who’s saying those things…?’
Then suddenly I felt something soft and wet landed on my lips… I slowly opened my eyes just to see nothing… I quickly looked at my side and Youngbae’s not there anymore…
The sun is starting to set… I looked at my watch and it’s already five thirty in the afternoon… why didn’t he wake me up…? He just left me here… that weird guy…
My phone started to ring… I quickly checked it and found that Jiyong’s calling me…My heart began to thump hard as I started to feel nervous…
“Hey…! Where are you…?! Can’t you see that it’s already time to go home…?!”
“Uhmm Jiyong… I’m sorry… I’ll go there now…”
“Be quick or I’ll leave you b!tch…”
And with that he hanged up… I quickly stood up and ran even my knee’s still in sore… I don’t know the way home… I’m afraid that he’ll leave me… After a while I reached the car… Mr. Lee opened the door for me and I saw him already inside… I could see that he’s angry… well… since when did I saw him not being angry…
I sat beside him but enough not to touch any part of him since he doesn’t like me being close to him… I just kept quiet until Mr. Lee started the car and head home… I know why he’s angry right now… maybe it’s because he can’t stay at his lover tonight because his parents are at home… they’ll definitely ask him why he didn’t spend the night at the mansion.
The silence is too deafening... I find it weird for him not to hear any of his rants... maybe even ranting is not in his mood right now... then suddenly he broke the silence.
“So… you had fun flirting with my friend…?” he stared at me coldly
Now I remembered where I saw you… I’m sure you’re one of his friends… You were at my wedding… but we never got to talk to each other… Now I realized that you were the one who played that beautiful song that keeps playing in my head until now…
How I didn’t paid attention to anyone that day… How I really wanted to know who played that song back then… that song which somehow calmed my aching heart for awhile… it was you all along… such a waste that we didn’t have the chance to be introduced to each other…
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It’s just that I’m wondering why didn’t he tell me that he already knows me… did he forget that I’m his friend’s wife…?
He’s strange… after he wished me luck, he didn’t spoke to me after that… he remained quiet and I can’t help that once in a while I would steal glances at him… he’s now having that serious face in his face again…
The class ended without him talking to me again… he got out of the room quickly… I want to ask him if he could remember me but he immediately left… maybe he’s just the same as his friend… maybe it runs in their blood… they’re all so cold.
I sighed… for I thought I would finally have my first friend in this campus… I guess he just don’t like me just like him…
I feel so isolated… nobody wants to approach me or even talk to me… I don’t know if it’s just me or are they really ignoring me… at least I got to manage surviving two more classes before the break without anyone to talk to…
I limped along the hallway making my way towards the cafeteria… my mind filled with different thoughts… is something wrong with me…? Do I have bad breath or something…? Why can’t I make friends just like back in abroad…? I really want this day to be great…
After I bought my food… I started looking for a place to eat… the benches are all occupied… they are all in groups which makes me feel really envious… I walked a while still trying to find myself a space… I went outside the campus and finally found a place for me under a tree…
I started eating while looking around… watching people as they’re having fun lunch with their group… feeling the breeze as it started to enveloped me… at least the wind wants to join me in my solitude…
I don’t want to go back inside… I know that it’s still my first day… that maybe as day pass by I could finally have my group of friends… but the feeling is different… this place also reminds me of the mansion… his mansion which locking me up from happiness and bringing me into deep loneliness…
I suddenly lost my appetite… as soon as I saw ‘him’ from afar… why of all people I have to see him… he’s with Youngbae… walking towards someone… I saw a smile crept into his lips… I think it’s the first time I saw him do that… his smile somehow brings warmth inside my chest… how I wish he could smile like that in front of me…
I saw him approaching someone… his smile grew bigger until he reached that ‘someone’… somehow I knew who it is… it’s his lover… my heart skipped a bit when I saw him hugging her from behind… only I could see their backs not until they shifted their position…
How affectionate he can be with her... how sweet he can be... I wish that once he could be like that to me... even just a simple kindness from him would be enough.
So she’s his Taeyeon… even from afar I could see that she’s a beauty… her porcelain complexion stands out the most… her brown long hair and her slender body… the way she smiles could melt any man’s heart… she’s perfect… no wonder he fell for her… I couldn't help but to envy her.
I saw him resting his head on her shoulder whispering something in her ears which made her laugh, his arms wrapped around her waist … their friends started to surround them including Youngbae… all of them are having a good time… Even her friends like her so much...
I found myself stiffened while watching them… he released her from his hold only to reach for her hand and intertwined it with his… his smile never left his lips not until he saw me watching them… I saw him frowned… his face became sour… I can’t help but to feel guilty for ruining his mood…
He quickly looked away as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder… threw a deadly glare on me before walking away with her… I just bowed my head as if I’ve committed a crime for watching them… after a while I looked up only to see that they’re already far… I sighed once again… I wonder if he’ll punish me later once we got home…
Then something… no someone caught my eye… I saw Youngbae slowly approaching me… I fidgeted on my position trying to stand up and just leave before he could reach me… but I was too late… he’s now standing in front of me looking down at me… silence… just silence…
Did he see me looking at them earlier…? Did he see how stupid I looked like watching my husband with another woman… did he see how pathetic I look like now being alone…
“Uhmmm… hi…”
I managed to say while looking up at him… he’s just wearing that still serious face…. He didn’t answer but just bend down to meet my face… I somehow got startled on how our faces were now inches away from each other so I quickly pulled my head back a little…
I saw him got his handkerchief from his pocket… I just watch him… then he wiped off something at the side of my mouth… he didn’t say anything but just continued what he’s doing… he’s really strange….
“Th- thanks…”
Is all I could manage to say… he just looked at me then shifted himself and sat beside me… I heard him sighed… I turned to him and gathered my voice to speak up.
“What are you doing here Youngbae-sshi…?” I asked him… he didn’t look back at me but continued looking afar.
“Did you know that an average person falls in love seven times before marriage…?” he suddenly said…
“Eh…?
“That two out of five have married their first love…”
“Huh…?”
He still continued and didn’t pay attention to me… he’s really freaking me out… why is he saying these things…? I reached for his arm to make him stop.
“Oh… you’re here…?” He turned to me finally... his eyes widened as if he’s really surprised to see me.
“Huh…? Yes I am… you’re the one who approached me first… can’t you remember…?”
I let go of his arm… I could feel my forehead creasing because of this weird man… then suddenly, I saw him slowly smiling.
“Ah really…? But I got here first…”
He said raising his brow… I can’t believe this guy… is he playing with me…? This conversation’s becoming pointless… I think something’s wrong with his mind… I rolled my eyes and decided to just leave… I grabbed my things and started to stand up but then he suddenly grabbed my hand and pulled me to sit down again… I was surprise again… I almost fell down on him but he managed to hold onto my shoulders and sat me down.
“Where are you going…?” he asked me
“I should just go… coz it seems like you’re just playing with me…”
“Why’d you think so…?”
He said with his serious tone… here he go again…. I just stared at him while pouting… I don’t want to talk to him so the best thing is to just keep quiet…. Then he began chuckling.
“I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to piss you… it’s just that you look all serious…”
“No I am not…”
“Yes you are…”
Silence… We looked at each other and I'm starting to feel uncomfortable with his stare… so I was the one who broke the silence first.
“So you came here just because I look serious…?
“Hmmm…. Yeah… I was bored then I saw you…”
“But I saw you with your friends…”
“So you were watching me…?” he said teasingly
“No I am not…!” as I looked away… I could feel my cheeks burning with his constant staring…
“Why are you blushing…?”
“No I am not…!” I pouted…. Why did he suddenly turn out like this…?
And then silence again… I still didn’t dare to look at him because I could still feel him looking at me…
“I don’t want to go back in there… Can you stay here with me…” he suddenly said as he rested his arms behind his head and leaned back on the tree.
“Why…?” I finally turned to him
“It’s so boring in there…” he said as he closed his eyes… I looked at him and can't help but to admire his beauty... I sighed once again.
I decided to stay… we heard the bell rang indicating that the class is now starting… I can't believe that I cut class in my first day… but somehow I don’t regret it… somehow I like to just stay here with him. I also leaned my back on the tree while looking around as people around us starting to lessen until we’re the only ones left.
“Youngbae-sshi…” I called him
“Hmmm…?”
“Do you remember me…?”
“Hmmm…? What do you mean…?” he said still his eyes closed… can’t he really remember me..?
“Well… you played a song for my wedding… and I really liked it.... can’t you remember that…?”
He didn’t answer back… I didn’t talk anymore… silence consumed us again… maybe he’s already sleeping… after a while… I could feel myself slowly drowsing… my eyes slowly closed and the next thing I know is I fell into a deep sleep.
‘You were really beautiful that day…’
‘I wish I was him…’
‘I wish I am the one who’s suppose to be with you right now…’
‘Am I dreaming…? Who’s saying those things…?’
Then suddenly I felt something soft and wet landed on my lips… I slowly opened my eyes just to see nothing… I quickly looked at my side and Youngbae’s not there anymore…
The sun is starting to set… I looked at my watch and it’s already five thirty in the afternoon… why didn’t he wake me up…? He just left me here… that weird guy…
My phone started to ring… I quickly checked it and found that Jiyong’s calling me…My heart began to thump hard as I started to feel nervous…
“Hey…! Where are you…?! Can’t you see that it’s already time to go home…?!”
“Uhmm Jiyong… I’m sorry… I’ll go there now…”
“Be quick or I’ll leave you b!tch…”
And with that he hanged up… I quickly stood up and ran even my knee’s still in sore… I don’t know the way home… I’m afraid that he’ll leave me… After a while I reached the car… Mr. Lee opened the door for me and I saw him already inside… I could see that he’s angry… well… since when did I saw him not being angry…
I sat beside him but enough not to touch any part of him since he doesn’t like me being close to him… I just kept quiet until Mr. Lee started the car and head home… I know why he’s angry right now… maybe it’s because he can’t stay at his lover tonight because his parents are at home… they’ll definitely ask him why he didn’t spend the night at the mansion.
The silence is too deafening... I find it weird for him not to hear any of his rants... maybe even ranting is not in his mood right now... then suddenly he broke the silence.
“So… you had fun flirting with my friend…?” he stared at me coldly
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